wtf lazy

this is totally ridiculous. not only am i totally not getting anywhere with my ' new' story that i have been working on FOREVER, i have still not posted one story here on lj...everything is posted at sinful desire or dean/sam archive or fanfiction.net. when i originally wrote those i had no lj account, so...i didnt post here. now i have an account, havent been writing and am still totally intimidated about how to post an actual story here. but i want to!!! im just not sure how to do it...not sure how to post under the cut, etc...and my stuff is nc-17 so, cant just throw it out there on my regular page, right?! ugh. and besides, i need to post it somewhere someone will see, not this stupid spot here where no one even sees!! bleh.